I am re-reading my posts from just 3 short months ago. I've gained MORE weight since then, and am thoroughly disgusted with myself. Officially I've hit 275.8 as a high #, that's 9 lbs more than I weighed three months ago. I keep saying enough is enough. I'll have a good week then it will all go to shit. I even worked out 4-5 days a week for 3 weeks straight. Thought I was getting back on track, only had 1 cheat MEAL, not day, a week. This past week was not ok, I did not go to the gym once, I ate out everyday and did not walk as much as I could have.
Holidays are coming, sister's wedding is coming and what I am I doing...NOTHING. God damnit I feel like I fail myself all the time. This is a girl who, at one time, went to bed every day at 7pm just to get up at 3 or 3:30am to work out for 2 hours before work! RELIGIOUSLY! What the fuck is wrong with me, seriously? Gah, I am so pissed at myself every day. I buy good food and don't eat it, so not only am I destroying my body but I am wasting perfectly good food too. I am such a bad human, for real.
I really think I need to blog more, let it all out everyday. Goals this week--obviously go to the gym :) Blog at least 4 more times, and eat the food I bought this weekend no more going out!!
Never back down, never give up. One day at a time, this is my life, I'm the only one who has to live it!
